March 2016 I applied testogel for the first time and got my first injection of the hormone blocker zoladex. At lot of changes happened quickly to list just a few; acne, private parts growth, increased sex drive and some body hair growth. The biggest thing that changed within the first month is my aggression levels. Before I started testosterone I was never an aggressive person, I didn’t really shout or argue but suddenly after I started testosterone and within the first month it was crazy!
The slightest thing would set me off and I would be shouting at people even objects. I caused a lot of fights with my wife, which was the worst bit – I think we fought more within that first month on testosterone than the whole time we have been together. I knew that I couldn’t let things stay that way or would only get worse. I had to find a way to control my aggression, I had no idea how I was going to do that but I had to find away. I chose to do a really simply way, when I could feel myself getting close to snapping I would walk away, I would remove myself from the situation. Thankfully it worked, giving myself that time to calm down before I could say or do something crazy I was able to regain control. Slowly I was able to calm myself down and regain control without having to remove myself from a situation. Sometime I still have to take time to calm down before I can address sometime that has upset or pissed me off.
Thankfully since I gained that control I have been able to go back to the person that doesn’t get in argument and fights over the slightly things. It has meant have gotten back my calm control of myself.
-Honest Trans Guy